,,missing you,,

 Every single day i'm asking myself "what should I do? How am I start a new day without him?", answering those question is really hard..I think I regret all the decisions that I made for the two of us..I just want you to be honest on the things that i'm always asking you..I just want a true answer..I just want to know the truth so that I know where I should be in your life..I choose to be your friend because I know that's the only thing that we can be and not more than that..Some people keep telling me that maybe someday we can be together if we are meant for each other..

It's almost a week that we don't have any communications even seeing each other..I miss the way you smile when we're together..I miss the way you tell those silly jokes..I miss the way you care about me..I really miss the things about you..I really miss the real you..

The changes in me is all because of you..You taught me to be strong unlike when you first met me,,you always telling me that I need to be strong because being a looser is not good,, I must learn how to fight most importantly if I know that i'm on the right place..You make me feel so special,,

I always asking myself "why I can get over you? why I can't treat you as an ordinary friend? why I can't get rid of you?", I have a lot of questions on my mind that I can answer all by myself,,maybe I really need an answer from you but when I ask some of the questions you'll just say "You're special to me, that's it.",,how I wish you will tell me that you love me like what you're saying before but if it's hard for you to say those words its okay,,i'm just your friend, a friend whose willing to do anything just to make you happy,,

I want to be with you but your with her..You promise me that you're always be there for me and you're lucky that you have me,,You know what when you told me that when you heard the song LUCKY by jason mraz i'm the first one who pop-up in your mind, i'm so happy after hearing that from you..I hope your going to stay the same.. 


Are you still willing to continue this?no communications through cellphone even in facebook...maybe you it will not be a big lost to you if i'm not going to be on your side forever..

I REALLY MISS YOU...